Please dont take me away..

Time always passes so fast. I guess everybody do not have enough time to get what they want and to get rid of what they hate. Nowadays i have a very strange feeling, although i can be enjoying my shopping outside and may be enjoying my PSP game but in the end i'll feel that i am truly unhappy and may leave the world any second. Thats what i fear about.
I'm going NS on the 5th of march and i have a feeling that i may not come back safely, i may just die in there one day, i'm REALLY REALLY afraid about this and i do not want this to happen!
I'm only 18 and i still have many undone dreams and i've yet to visit the places i'd love to go, i still want to try out the long-dream jobs and earn big bucks to be filial to my parents. There are many things to be done!
My time left is not much, less than only two months and i'm trying to make my mind empty at all times, i do not have the courage to face myself and the future but whats the use? U'll have to face the music. Anyway, I'm trying to fulfill some of my dreams within this time..
P.S Please dont take me away.