The emptiness within me~~

Well, this is not a joyful update. I just wanna blog out all my feelings.. I wonder if im kinda xtra in Accura (My office) as it seems that every morning i step into my office, i'll feel lonely and of cos nothing 4 me 2 do.. All my colleagues and manager will be very busy with their work and i'll just sit there and do nothing.. (That's y im blogging now).. Im a lazy person, i noe most of u will tink that i'll be very happy as i've nothing fuck 2 do but actually i feel miserable as i'll tink that im not wanted in the office u c.. Reali hurtz as im not assigned to do anythin... As the shipments have actually dropped alot as more and more companies has stopped shipping with us due to some reasons. Thus now the boss has arranged that individual Customer Service staff will be the Person-In-Charge of certain customers. So all the other colleagues hv their own customers and that's y they are always busy as they need 2 take care of abt 7-8 customers which could be hard i tink. But i, as a part-timer im not in-charge of any of the customers, not even 1... Haiizzz, reali sad but so far i've never done a mistake in work which is good 4 myself..
Im just wondering, m i actually needed in this office, m i actually SPARE in this office?
~~ Haiizz, im feeling very bored now, nothing fuck to do just sitting there and do nothing.

P.S im reali mentally prepared if i reali need to leave........